You don’t deserve that. At least for all the hurt love causes, it has an equally powerful ability to heal. I have been running from emotional wounds surrounding abandonment all my life, as well as addictive behavior. The most common trait that I see in this thread is by the intensity of the pain and/or feelings that we feel. the terms are usually used for deviant sexual behavior (S&M -Sadism and Masochism), but they can also be used to describe people who either like to hurt themselves (cutters) or … You did the right thing for everyone and by being strong you’re helping you too which matters, you matter. Kross and colleagues brought test participants into a brain imaging machine and had them complete two multi-part tasks. So I believe all you on here . Don’t give up I say everyday and people like you and I have been to places most don’t even think of. I did not understand but reading about all this it makes sense. It will be a hard journey but trust me, you will love some one else one day. He’s attacked me a couple of times since September and this time I finally decided that I needed to leave. It will at least give you clarity and understanding and in time you will notice that finding out about it has definitely improved your life. Im feel this day by day. A therapist who doesn’t dwell on working within the box (because really, there is no box) or see you as another file or more paperwork.. We use technologies, such as cookies, to customize content and advertising, to provide social media features and to analyse traffic to the site. I can’t concentrate, I can’t eat, I constantly feel like I’m going to throw up, my stomach is in knots and I can’t stop the diarrhea. All I know is I hurt so much and I wish she were here. It bangs me, twists my heart, I can’t take a breath. What you can tolerate can be torture for them. And yet, she sees so much now of how she could not have prevented this at all and how many things this young man presented with need to be dealt with or they will never be able to be a proper team as you have to keep the people you really love. So thank you for sharing your story and I would love to chat if you ever get bored. You can easily love someone when you’re happy but when shit hits the fan, someone who is worth the pain will make you forget why it hurts and remember why you love them. Yeah and you must just want to be sad . Understanding my rewiring has helped a lot. All or nothing, yes and no. That’s why you have to focus on loving them and on loving yourself. The family that adopted me seems like they would be the best thing that I could have, but I keep looking at my friends and their family’s and how they all have a real mom and dad, and fit in with their family. Studying polyvagal theory helped me understand my chronic pain quite a bit. My heart aches not knowing wether she loved me or not. I could relaMy heart completely understand everything you have felt. Especially when you still wish the person you left the best of everything from