This series asks the fundamental question: What is normal, and what is not? Anyway, this is a simple, short post on what I think is a great coffee. That’s what that was. … this sounds like a physical manifestation of anxiety thats close to what i experience. Too much coffee means too much caffeine. A man approached my table – intentionally – I didn’t know what to expect from him. Yeah, I can barely tolerate coffee when I'm relaxed, but when I'm stressed out and I drink it I become anxious, irritable, sad, jittery, and get palpitations and the sweats. It all started with me having to get up and take my 5 year old daughter to her hair appointment early in the morning. I smiled politely and said, “Awww, that’s so sweet of you, thank you.”  He replied, “Seriously, I know this can be kind of boring, and I would like to treat you to a drink.”  I was taken aback by this gesture so I said sure and placed my order. What is a small gesture of kindness that you can take and pay it forward? Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Every sight, sound, smell or even touch that reminded me of Dominic evoked a wave of sorrow that almost always ended in tears. He cares for my smallest need and desire. You mentioned drinking it when you're studying. maybe a little bit earlier in the morning than usual? So I needed to run to the coffee shop. I’ve learned how to fix my eyes on some distant point if cornered by a well-meaning friend asking how I am but not really wanting to hear about how Dominic’s death continues to impact our family. Post was not sent - check your email addresses! Whenever I know I will have a hard day or anything like that, I opt out of coffee. When I was experiencing my worst bout of anxiety caffeine definitely made it feel more intense. ( Log Out /  I usually drink one a day, mostly when I'm tired or when I'm studying. There's already a lot of great answers here, I just wanted to say congrats on the engagement!! But today I had to be focused and determined … You're already stressed, the caffeine heightens that. Maybe it’s a smile or a hug to someone, maybe a cup of coffee or tea, maybe it’s giving some money or watching a mommy’s kids. So the triggers were an outlet for that pent up energy, angst and sadness. However, for the past couple of weeks, when I do drink coffee, regardless if I've eaten or not, I get this feeling like I need to cry. But I tend to feel manic, I guess. Download. The use of mind-altering substances like these can alter behavior, mental processes and cause physical symptoms.